Go to any social network and you’ll peruse a variety of New Years resolutions. Some are deep, spiritual goals and others are centered in correcting bad habits. Perhaps that’s what spurred on my sudden interest in writing a bucket list. I started thinking about things I’d like to do before I leave this earth and thought, “I should write all of them down.” I am however, not a very goal oriented person so this task has proven to be more difficult that I imagined.
I never lived in Florida before and I’ll be making my home here for a couple of months. On New Years day I had the pleasure of spending the day on Sanibel Island, just off the coast of Fort Myers. It was lovely! When the people I went with decided to explore further down the stretch of shell strewn, white sand, I elected to stay where I was to watch the sun set on the Gulf of Mexico. As I sat there I felt the salty breeze, smelled the marine air, listened to the seagulls, and tasty the occasional sand grain on my tongue. What does this have to do with a bucket list?
Ten years ago if you would have asked me what I wanted to do I would never have said, “Sit on the beach on Sanibel Island and watch the sun set on the Gulf of Mexico.” But I did it. And it was glorious. I might now put it on my bucket list as something I want to do again but with my wonderful wife Carolyn. But the experience was something I had never imagined. Therefore, it’s something that I hadn’t thought about. And therein lies the rub.
I don’t really think. I know that sounds funny but it’s true. Oh, I think about your typical things. I think about what I’m having for breakfast, what time I have to wake up so I can make it work on time, what I’m getting someone for Christmas, etc. But when it comes to lifelong aspirations I tend to go with the flow. I mean, I don’t make a lot of plans. I like it that way. When asked what I want for a present I like to say, “Surprise me.” I feel the same way about my life. There are certainly things I’d like to see and do before I die, but because I’m not motivated by things I don’t think I’d make a lot of headway achieving any of them.
Will I visit my ancestral homeland of Glattfelden, Switzerland? Sure, I’d like to some day. Will I finally visit my good friend Dagfinn in Norway? Perhaps one day I will. But putting these things on a list aren’t going to make them any more or less of a priority for me. I think it’s because my priority is strive to live in the moment. And not cast my energy and thoughts on things that might be. I like putting my energy and attentions on things that are right now. Plus, I already have everything I always wanted.
By no means am I saying that Bucket Lists are not a good thing. I just know for me, it’s very difficult writing one. I find that when I put something down I think, “But if this doesn’t happen it wouldn’t bother me much.” And I know they tell me I’m supposed to “think big” when I’m putting things on the list. Well, I already believe everything is possible and achievable, and well I don’t think! 🙂
Perhaps that is my bucket list. My one item to never forget to do.
1. To always follow my heart. When I’m connected to my creator, when I realize that I already have everything I need, any extra’s that are thrown my way are even that more appreciated. Kind of like that day and evening on Sanibel Island.